I had a couple of new friends here at the house this weekend, Steve Lawson and his wife, Lobelia. They are awesome folk, incredible musicians and purveyors of all things social media related; i.e. Twitter, ReverbNation, Facebook, etc.
Steve gave an awesome workshop on the future of musicians (in particular) and the rise of social media. It was engaging and for me, eye opening.
I had a moment there when the room went dark and I had this startling realization. I was robbed. My dream of pursuing music, songwriting, performing, recording…this was taken from me. I know exactly when it happened too. It happened the moment I saw that I wasn’t going to get a record deal before I was “too old” to get a record deal. It happened when my band broke up the first time and then the second time. It happened when I had my first child…then my second and my third and my fourth. It was taken from me each and every time I saw the unlikeliness of a “record deal” in my immediate future.
And I quit trying.
I wish I could say that I quit trying to get a record deal because that would have left my art intact. That would have left me an artist without a record deal rather than leaving me an artist soul without a motivation to make art. But I didn’t just quit trying for a deal, I quit making art.
I was robbed because I believed a lie. I believed the big commercial machine that was still very much large and in charge in the late 80’s and early 90’s. The lie was that without a deal it was useless to try.
And I’m angry that I believed that. And I’m thankful that I started writing again, starting pursuing the muse again, that I met Steve and Lo and all the other working artists I’ve been lucky enough to add as friends this last few years.
It’s not too late to pursue your dream, you know. I know the machine that fuels the economy which sells the “product” of your art (whatever it may be) will try to tell you that there is a deadline and a set of forms to be filled out in triplicate and a wall of fire and burning coals for you to walk through before you can continue but they are wrong…and they are no longer large and in charge.
Make your art. The world needs beauty. Don’t forget.